I cant believe the fact that i’m almost 19 and still as immature and childish and irresponsible as a 9 year old girl-possibly worse.
No one comes here now to visit, which means I can say whatever i want to say here, without even thinking of about him reading it. I often thought of last year and how we could be attracted to each other..how did that happen Lord? Please let me let go now of all that…of whatever that I have to leave behind….those memories belong to the past, and i shouldn’t hold on to them any longer.
Ms Chia was so straigthforward it shocked me.At least now, my conscience is clear.Friends and Officer-primer.
Oh Lord my God, i’m just drifting day by day and not living a life glorifying You. You have been so merciful and your grace has abounded where redemption was thought impossible. I want to run to You Lord, for strength and determination to go on…and to realise how blessed I am….and how sinful I am too.Lord, Ive neglected You, running away from you and the responsibilities of being Your daughter. Bring me back Lord…to your arms…where i know i can find refuge and strength, and redemption and grace.
I’m ugly and fat and …stupid? How do i blossom to be the woman You want me to be?
